I want to remember.
I’m so prone to forgetting.
I was standing at one of the main sessions of the EFCA national conference overwhelmed with tears of affirmation. God had been doing many things in my heart at that time. This was a time of extraordinary revelation of God’s desire for my life. Previous to the conference I had been preparing to raise support and join the Miami Crusade team. One day, as I was praying and reading, I was struck with an abrupt doubt. I remember saying out loud, “Could I have missed it?” I felt this strong conviction coming over me that God did not want me to continue my internship with Crusade. I felt Him say, “You haven’t asked me what I want you to do, you’ve simply assumed.” Whether I should have stopped that summer to seek God for my next step is still unclear to me. I was moving forward with the things that I felt he had set before me. But nonetheless, he had interjected.